Depression and Resolution

Many of us have been sometimes in situation where one feels the whole world and life in it is absurd or even worse, a bad dream, a torture. in situations like facing excessive failures, disasters, traumas etc.

You know, life never betrays, it all happens because of the rules and reasons, despair comes when someone accepts its faith, but there is no prophecy, no faith, you should not believe in any  fairy tales, or religions, they bring our expectation of life to a severely dangerous level that when their curtains fall and one faces the reality of life the dream becomes unreachable and vanishes into a depression/anger/rebellion which happens only if you are not resolute enough, a resolute man find no (existential) reasons to regret.

In all cases when I fall into an argument with a religions person, at some stages they start to yell “why don’t you kill yourself?, why you do good acts when there is no judgement or reward?, how can you be happy by having such beliefs?” I think these questions rise from lack of resolution, when one fails to see a few meters further in horizon, because there are thousand different ways of thinking, eg: isn’t really any other purpose for whole life on earth other than determining who must go heaven and who must go hell to enjoy/suffer eternally?

And of course these different ways of thinking branches out in their mind sometimes, some people manage to mute them over and over so they grow a thick skin for ignoring them for the rest of their lives, but in some the thoughts win, they start to find other ideologies acceptable, they start to doubt seriously about their sweet beliefs and its very hard for them to get over with, some start to revolt against humanity values and, get sick of the whole existence -hence the term “existential hatred” coins in- there will be depression, but let me tell you, this is also a result of lack of resolution, because when thinking well about it, life is actually more meaningful with its truth accepted, logic is always beautiful, having an equation solved by logic feels a lot better than having an unsolved equation in mind which is watermarked by fairy tales that try to force us into stopping to think about solving it, when we the clouds of superstition gets clear from our life, when we accept that we have this one body, this one earth and this one life, the real values of humanity start to emerge, the importance of enjoying your life, the happiness, loving and the Arts, Nature and Literature.

Abandoned Dreams

I’m famous (notorious you may say) between people around me as being a pensive man, I agree with them, sometimes I get lost in thoughts while staring at someone or somewhere. I look strange and even some people get insulted, I don’t know if I should fix this habit in myself or no, but the fact is that I dream a lot.

Today I was thinking about the responsibilities the dreams bring for us, I’m talking about the kind of dreams in which we imagine ourselves in a position where we want to be whole heartedly because it feels so great that is indescribable , the more dreams we make, the more responsibility we have for achieving them, I don’t say by any means that dreaming is bad, but if we want to have satisfaction and happiness in life, the ability to justify our dreams for ourselves to see whether they are the feasible for us,  and the willpower to go for them is very important.

Undoubtedly one of our most valued possessions in our lives is our dreams, I believe that the largest part of the mental activities in humans is dreaming, day and night, I strongly agree with Henry Ford’s famous quote which says “Thinking is the hardest work there is” but unlike thinking dreaming is easy, perhaps the easiest, but also one the most powerful driving forces in our lives, it play a serious role in defining what we are and what we will become,  we often yearn to directions which we have dreamed of taking,  we seek jobs that we have dreamed of working, we love friends that we have dreamed of having, we crave to reach our dreams and make them true and when one happens, its of our greatest achievements.

If there is a golden rule of satisfaction of deep and hearty kind, it is working toward your dreams  and achieving them, and equally, weaving goodbye to a long nurtured dream is a deep hearty loss, we can easily get carried on by the streams of events and ordinary days, we can accept the first offer coming to us which can take us under control for a considerable percentage of our lives, we may make decisions that favors comfort or  small and short-term satisfactions over long-term and greater ones, or even not decide on anything at all when we must actually decide and choose a direction, and as a  result of all these, we will wake up one day and remember the visions we had when we were at the beginning of the road and compare it to where we are actually standing, we will see we are far away from our vision and the regrets is useless.


I had made a couple of attempts to have a blog in the past,  some died at birth and some lived shortly until they grew teeth, but all of them were abandoned (like letters wrote and torn) because of my poor time management, occasional wipes of all my ambitions or the earthquakes in my mindset, Its been quiet a while now that I haven’t post in any blog, like 3 three years or so, I itched many times for writing a blog but goddamn it, I always was looking for a free time to start blogging and I was just wrong, as the time passed I only got busier and busier not any more free, and now I’m starting this blog while I’m at the busiest times of my life (working 14 hours a day, 7 days of week), and I’m glad that I didn’t postpone it any further because that way it won’t happen ever I’m afraid.

The Idea of having a domain name for myself was coined by my  dear friend and workmate Mahdi who -secretly-  registers domains and resells hosting for his customers, I’m very grateful to him for his role in pushing me into having this blog and do what must be done.

From now on I’ll be unloading my thoughts and experiences of my days in this place, hoping to make sense of them for you and of course for myself. please walk along with me and don’t forget to leave a comment, it will be very much appreciated.